m701117的部落格

自從上個月跟媽媽去電影院看過後, 這首歌一直在我的腦海裡揮之不去, 買了 Mamma mia 的電影原聲帶, 我瘋狂的跟著學 The Winner Takes It All 這首歌! 唱到小胖都受不了的跟我說...你要不要回妳家再練?



也許歌詞有碰觸到我心中以為已經關起來的角落吧:

I don't wanna talk                                                 我不想再談
About the things we've gone through                      已經發生的事
Though it's hurting me                                          儘管那傷害了我
Now it's history                                                    但那已成了歷史
I've played all my cards                                         我打出了每一張牌
And that's what you've done too                             你也一樣
Nothing more to say                                             再也無話可說
No more ace to play                                             再也沒有王牌

The winner takes it all                                           贏家通吃
The loser standing small beside the victory             輸家卑微的站在勝利旁邊
That's her destiny                                                 那是他的命運

I was in your arms                                                我曾躺在你懷裡
Thinking I belonged there                                       認為我屬於那裡
I figured it made sense                                          我嘗試找到意義
Building me a fence                                              在我面前築起一道籬
Building me a home                                              築成一個家
Thinking I'd be strong there                                    以為我會很堅強
But I was a fool                                                     但我真是傻
Playing by the rules                                               一切都照規矩在玩

The gods may throw a dice                                    眾神丟了個骰子
Their minds as cold as ice                                     他們的內心冷酷如冰
And someone way down here                                在下面的某個凡人
Loses someone dear                                            失去了心愛的人
The winner takes it all                                           勝者拿走一切
The loser has to fall                                              輸家一敗塗地
It's simple and it's plain                                         那是理所當然
Why should I complain                                         我能抱怨什麼

But tell me does she kiss                                     但是，告訴我她吻你的時候
Like I used to kiss you?                                        像我吻你一樣嗎？
Does it feel the same                                            感覺一樣嗎？
When she calls your name?                                  當她呼喚你名字的時候
Somewhere deep inside                                        在內心深處
You must know I miss you                                    你一定知道我很想你
But what can I say                                                但我還能說什麼
Rules must be obeyed                                          遊戲規則必須遵守

The judges will decide                                           法官即將宣判
The likes of me abide                                            我得服從判決
Spectators of the show                                          看表演的觀眾
Always staying low                                               總是保持冷靜
The game is on again                                            遊戲再度登場
A lover or a friend                                                  是愛人還是朋友
A big thing or a small                                            是大或是小
The winner takes it all                                           贏家通吃，勝者為王

I don't wanna talk                                                 我不想談
If it makes you feel sad                                        如果那使你感到悲傷
And I understand                                                 而我明白
You've come to shake my hand                            你會前來和我握手
I apologize                                                          我向你致歉
If it makes you feel bad                                        如果那使你不好受
Seeing me so tense                                            看到我如此緊張
No self-confidence                                               缺乏自信
But you see                                                        但你可以看到
The winner takes it all                                          贏家通吃
The winner takes it all...                                       勝者為王

心中小小的角落大概還有對某人的不甘心, 尤其是歌詞中的"贏家通吃 勝者為王", 更讓我徹徹底底的覺得我自己是個 loser, 比不過人家的學歷, 比不過人家的家境, 比不過他們的契合, 可是我付出了那麼多的心力, 卻是最後才知道他們已經在一起了!  平安夜的紅酒趴宣佈他們要結婚的那一剎那, 我整個世界好像都崩塌了, 從216巷光著腳地走回復興南...誰在乎呢? 

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